The Joys of Children

Wednesday is my longest day but I guess all-in-all it's really not too much worse than any other day. History was fine. Math was incomprehensible. Education was dandy. Work was thrilling. At work five year old Kaitlin comes up to me and says, "Guess what Miss Elsa, my grandpa can take out his teeth." I love my job if for no other reason than the laughs it brings. Last week Collin was wiping out the bottom of a dirty toy bin (voluntarily) and states, "This looks like snuff. It's gross. I wish my dad would stop chewing snuff 'cause when he does and he talks to me I can see it and it's so gross." Another day last week I got an invitation from Mellanie to come over her house and watch "Baby Story" and see her sister born from when her whole family was on TV. A co-worker, Pam, confirmed that indeed her family was on television in a show called "Baby Story" and that that was closer to any family than she ever wanted to get and we laughed. I really do love babies... but watching them born into this world, ewww, not my kind of entertainment. Ok, here's one more conversation from today that Pam told me about. She said she walked up to the table serving drinks and hears Jared say to Paige, "I don't want to live with you, but I will sleep over. A sleep over would be fun." When Pam told his dad about that one his said he was hoping he wouldn't have to deal with that for at least another 12 years, and laughed. Work is good. But now Dana is leaving and they want me to work five days a week. I guess that's cool, right? Anyway, that was a long ramble so now I'll just add some more pictures, go eat dinner, read some of Isaiah, and go do some homework, talk to Colvin, and sleep.

P.S. I do love babies. I'm so excited 'cause my cousin Jessica is pregnant and so is my aunt Jill!

My Cannon

It's weird, I feel all lazy when my day is not jam-packed. Today I had one class and no work. It's just strange. I'm sorry it's the opposite of your day Colvin. It's nice though to have time for homework and stuff. I even did some today. Are you proud? Anyway, I'm mostly writing so I can post some new pictures.
I mailed in my three transfer application this past Saturday. Boy am I glad to have that done. Now all that's left to do is wait. I did have a dream last night that I got accepted into TCNJ, so that's a good thing right... I think it was all just to mess with my mind.
Well my finger are cold and I have more homework left to do for tomorrow so I will leave some pictures for you and get going.

Look at Dori and tell me she's not adorable. lol.

Oh, and wait Daniel says our blog is boring. I would appreciate some feedback on this point. Is it boring? Why or why not? (ha ha, it's like a school type question) But please, answer honestly. Yeah, that's it now. I promise.

Exhaustion Takes Over

Life is too much work. When creating my schedule for this semester I forgot to leave time for one thing... sleep. My 8:20 class was killer today. I sure I can survive, atleast for a while. I'm just scared that my lack of sleep is just going to keep building and that half way through the semester I'm going to breakdown. I like my classes just fine but I have an awful feeling I'm going to have to read this semester. So far I've managed to, for the most part, avoid that in my college career. Yuck life.

It's not all bad I supose. I'm mostly just exhausted and my day is only just beginning. I'm ready for it to be 10:30 already. I'm ready for February 17th already too. Or summer, or next year or to be graduated from college. It's hard to be satisfied with the present when I so look forward to the future. I need a nap.

A Grrrrrr Day

Educational Field Experience doesn't start for half an hour yet so I have time to make a post. At this time I have three major thoughts on my mind.
1- I hate being sick.
2- I hate stuggling to complete collage applications.
3- I hate being far away from Colvin.

It stinks that just when you think you were getting better you starting hacking up green blobs of gew from your lungs again. It stinks to have to blow your nose 20 times in the middle of lecture while sitting next to someone who now hates you and will never sit next to you again. It stinks to have a headache that makes your actual eye balls hurt. I just want to be better already.

Applications are driving me crazy. But not as crazy as the desicions I will have to make after I get answers back. Letters of recommendation are a pain. Financial aid paper work is a pain. Trying to remember the noteworthy things I have done with the past three years of my life is wearing me out. Having my mother on my back and down my throat about everything is driving me INSANE and I have no idea how to even tell her that because I know she is just trynig to do what's right and take care of me. Everyone heave a huge sigh... mothers...

I am happier than ever being a couple. I dislike all other couples. How does that work? These people in my math class are driving me crazy. How said they could be all happy and sweet and get to take the same class and sit next to each other when I can't even live in the same state as my boyfriend. I really don't know why it makes me mad, but it does. Jealousy I'm sure. Also knowing these two people from Precalc I and before they even ever talked to eachother and then thinking it was funny when they started to like eachother and flirt stupidly (they sat right in front of me) and now seeing them in Precalc II and just being all "together" and happy. I wish it didn't bother me.

Anyway, time to go. Sorry about all the hate. Tomorrow will be better I'm sure.

There Is Something Seriously Wrong With Me...

I just read some of one of my school books. Voluntarily. Without it being assigned. Without even having the class it's for yet. It wasn't a text book so I guess there's still hope for me. The book is for my Music, Mind & Brain class. It's a Psychology class and if it's like the book I'm reading I'm looking forward to it.

So today was my first day of classes. I had Finite Math which stunk but at least it's not Calculus. It's about real life math applications. Yea, intrest... right. I also had my other pysch. class today, Methods I. It's pretty much statisics for pyschologists. It it possibly going to be the most boring eight hours a week of my life I've ever wasted. You know what the best part is? If I decide to be a psych. major (which is fairly likely) I get to take part 2. Joy. It's all worth it I'm sure... I better all be worth it. I also have Business Law which could be interesting too but it's at 8:20 in the morning so we'll see if I'm awake enough to be interested. Don't ask me why I have an 8:20 class. I think having no classes before 1 last semester was making me feel worthless so I decided to wake up bright and early and... I don't know, that's why I said don't ask. So I have those four classes plus Bass Ensemble and some how that means I got to buy nine books (I won't tell you how much nine books cost). At least I'll look studious as I'm failing. I supose it could be worse.

I stumbed across a DVD I made after the summer of 2005. Just slideshows and a video of a bungee swing that kind of good stuff. It made me miss summer. That one was an especially good one for me. I had just graduated from high school, wasn't working for the later part of it, and pretty much had non-stop fun for all of it. Oh yeah, that's when I met Elsa too... wonder if that had anything to do with it?

Sigh...

Daydreaming Is Good Stuff...

I am alive. It's just been a very long time since I used the internet. Things are going pretty well here, other than Evan being sick the one week Mommy is away. But even that's been okay. He's a good kid. School starts next Monday. What fun. My four classes are Educational Field Experience, Pre-calc 2, US History, Intro to Nutrition. Work is going well cause making money is always good and I really do like kids and have a lot of fun there. I should not make this a long post because I have to leave in an hour and make the kids lunch before I do that.
I miss Colvin terribly but what can ya do? Having him here for as long as I did just spoiled me. Now I don't know what to do. Being this in love can be bittersweet...

Teewsrettib

Life is great, yet could be so much better. Everything lately has been going well but it's hard to look on the brightside when I know one little thing could make it all perfect. It's hard to have patience and just wait for things to just fall into place but that's about all that can be done right now. I can't help but think about how much better my life would be if Elsa was just around the corner rather than 160 miles away. It can be hard. I've been able to see her alot over break and, don't get me wrong, I'm thankful for that but it also makes me realize what I'm missing out on every single day I'm not with her. It stinks to feel completely helpless and unable to do anything about it. Everytime I drive away from her house I want more than anything to turn right back around and never leave. The worst thing is that there aren't any options right now. The way things are are the way they have to be.

Once Elsa gets into some schools we'll see if anything changes. She transfers somewhere after this year and I'm not going to say I don't want her to go to Towson so that we can be close. At the same time I want what's best for her future and ours. So many thoughts go through my head. I don't know what tomorrow will bring so why am I not spending right now with the one I love? I keep telling myself to have a little patience and faith and it will all work out. That's easier said than done.

Mostly I am thankful. For everything in my life. I'm thankful more than anything to have the friends and family that I do. Thankful for a decent job and to at a good school. I am so thankful to have Elsa in my life I don't know what I'd do with out her. God is good.

It's a beautiful winter day outside.