Cuteness

The weekend is almost here. Just two more classes and I get a nice relaxing weekend at Windy Inn. I must admit it's a bit of a bitersweet trip. No Elsa means not nearly as much fun. I know she has something more important to be doing so it's ok. I give her a hard time about not coming but that's not because I expect her to come but really it's just because I love her and miss her. Life's no fun far from the ones you love.

Windy Inn last year holds so many fond memories. I guess that's when I really realized that Elsa might just feel about me the way I felt about her. That weekend changed alot. All for the better. I wish she was going with me this weekend but it's ok. I'll see her Sunday and next weekend's our one year anniversary. Someday, hopefully sooner than later we won't just see eachother on the weekends. Hopefully someday soon it'll be everyday.


P.S. Bitersweet should definately be spelled biitersweet.

Heartfelt Longing

Never take the one you love for granted.

Savor every moment you spend together.

I try both.

I'm pretty good about the first but on the second...

some how they still seem to get away to fast

and my memory makes a mess of all things...

there are so many moments I want to live again.

Colvin and I spent four whole days together and now I very literally miss him so much it hurts. Life is not fair. Life is good, great, even grand. I mean I love being in love more than I can tell you. But still life is not fair.

We had a really good time though.On Friday night we watched "Gone With The Wind". On Saterday we visited my grandparents because they are moving to AZ on the 29th. Then we watched and aweful movie that I then had to write a paper on for school. On Sunday we had morning services at Southampton and lunch and then came home and had a pretty relaxing afternoon chopping wood and playing some board games. I even got Colvin to ride our little blue dirt bike. Monday, Dad and Colvin and I spent the whole day out visiting two colleges. TCNJ is super nice like. We had a way cool lunch together at a Chinese and Japaniese restaraunt. It was a good day. Tuesday, Colvin spent all day at school with me, from 10:30 AM to 9:00 PM. He got to sit in on two out of three classes so that fun (or maybe not for him, more like extreamly boring). We watched a movie last night together too. Today he left at 8:45, the same time that I left to go to class.

I had a biology mid-term first and then a hour and half lab and then an hour and a half to study and then a pre-calc mid-term. Fun. Colvin had an exam today too. Poor him. He did not think that it was today... the ones that take you by surprise really stink.

Time to talk to Colvin and then sleep.

G'night people.

Trouble With Bosses & Horses (But Very Differing Kinds of Trouble)

I really really do love fall. I have so many reasons to love fall. But today was just so beautiful that I could not help taking the back way home from school just to take it all in. I love were I live, am just so thankful for the place that we have. Anyway, is it weird to want to collect fall leaves for no reason at all other than that they are pretty. I still have the leaves we collected at Windy Inn that first October before Colvin and I were courting. They are special. Someday I can say to my kids "these leaves are from October of 2005, the first time your dad invited me to Windy Inn, when we were just begining to fall in love". Okay, you can say it, I'm dumb.
So tonight Colvin in coming to pick up Daniel and I so the we can go to an Audio A. concert with everyone and then hopefully go to the corn maze on Saturday. I just barely got off work tomorrow but I did so it is all good. I'm excited. I work 2:00 to 6:00 tonight and then the weekend is mine... minus a little homework time.
Something wierd did happen today and that is that Stormy (our man horse) somehow managed to get our of his stall and out of the barn early this morning so that when Dad first went out he and our mare (Marrage) were just sort of hanging out together in one feild. We did want to breed them but this was very unplanned. It was just weird. But I don't really think they did anything anyhow. So no baby horses yet. It's funny because Stormy is just not smart enough I think to do what he has to do and leave her alone. After a few hours she was just getting anoyed and being less interested than she was from the start. Daddy put her back in the barn now. Oh well. That was my exciting story of the day.
Nothing else really. I'm mean I could tell you about the kid who sits next to me in music who I am going to punch in the face because he bothers me to no end, but you don't want to hear all about that. Wait, you do? Okay. Sop today he comes in like half an hour late to class and then starts to try and tell me how he when to a skate park over the weekend and eat the half pipe and even showed me the little scatch above his eye. Guess what, I DON'T CARE. But no, he continues to explain to me why we was late to class cause his tire blew out on some what ever number road... aww poor thing... wait, no, I REALLY DON'T CARE. I'm not trying to be cold hearted but the kid is just creepy. I told Colvin and so now he is going to come in with me sometime and growl at Steve and tell him to get away... forever. And then I will be all proud and laugh. Steve and Lenny. But Lenny is just a creepy old man in my voice class. One look should send him runnin'. lol.
That's really all. My boss tried to give me a hard time about taking three days off this month, but so far I got two. That's good I guess. Only not how she tried to make me feel bad and say "now you owe me". Whatever.
I really really really can't wait to see Colvin tonight. I know I saw him on Sunday but four days is just entirely to long to have to wait for a hug. I fear that trying to explain to you how much I miss him would only make you sick. I'll spare you. I mostly just wish I could live in the same state as him so that we could be together more than one a week or more than two weekends a month. It's stinks to not get to spend as much time as you want to with your best friend.
Time for lunch now and then work and then home and eat dinner, clean my room and pack.......... and then......... COLVIN!

Run Away

It's cold outside,
Where the river runs,
In midnights frozen stare,
Fooststeps trace a line,
To water's edge,
Where we'll start over there.

Counting Crows Minus Three

It was a long September but now it's over. October will be better. With every month that goes by life will only get better. The sooner I'm done with school for good the better. This month will be busy but not necessarily in a bad way. Not as much work, just as much school and more Elsa should definately make it better than September.

You know what's weird? October starts with octo which usually means eight, like octogon or octopus, but October is the tenth month. It's late so sorry, that was random.

It's hard being far from someone you love. Especially when they want to be close to you as bad as you want to be close to them. That's just how life has to be. Sometimes it stinks but what doesn't kill us makes us stronger, or atleast so they say. As tough as things seem sometimes I wouldn't trade what i have right now for the world. Friends, family, the love of someone who I love with all my heart. It doesn't get much better than that. But life is so much better, so much greater than that. Any way my point is as much as things may seem bad there is always a hope. Christ is our hope. No matter how ready we are to pitch in the towel, He will never leave us alone.

In the grand scheme of things I really don't have it bad at all. I may not have it all figured out but I've got enough figured out to know that all the hardest things to find I've found.

It's late so I should go before I get any more random.












a dream come true